21 September 2012

Stand-up act


Yesterday, 20Sept, Thursday night, and hour before an Open Mic Night at MassArt, my roommates tell me that they're going to attend the event.  So, I said that I wanted to do a stand-up act.  They supported me to do it.
As the show was closer to happening, I became more nervous.  I am scared of public speaking.  Also, I didn't know what I would say (the content) for a stand-up act.  Later, I chose to talk about how confusing Boston has been for me.
At the location of the performance, a gallery where every piece of artwork was upside-down, I talked to the guy running it, and I got to be one of the first acts.  I wanted to get it over with.  I was very nervous.
I got in front of the audience, it was quite a few people, and started talking.  I think my voice was shaking.  But, I got through some stories, and the audience laughed, and seemed to enjoy it.
I left the show early to go back to my dorm to get space.

I said something around the lines of:

I'm a Freshman, I just moved to Boston from Maine, and it's confusing to me.  Like, this room (the upside-down artwork gallery), I've never been here before, and everything is upside-down.  I'm think that there's a deeper meaning to this (I gestured to the artwork), but I don't get it.  I find it confusing.

It's like the other day, I was with family, and we were driving around Boston (this part, I mixed two stories together), but no one knows where anything is.  I asked about ten people how to get to Landmark Center, and no one knew.  Even adults who've lived here didn't know.  Or, they/people would tell me different things.  I don't know.  I'm not good at directions, anyways.  But, in the car, we'll see my dorm, it's right there, but every street is a "one-way", so it took a while to get there.

Yesterday, I went to an Outdoors Club meeting.  Afterwards, I saw that Student Development (office) was open, so I went there to get information about Student Government (SGA).  The man at the desk said that the SGA meeting just started, and that they had just finished introductions.  I went into the room, and they asked me: my name, grade, major, pronoun, and super-power.  I told them my name, that I didn't know what my intended major would be, that my pronoun is "Fay", because in English (class), a first-name is a pronoun, and that my super-power would be able to play an instrument mildly well.  They were really nice, they pulled up a chair for me and everything.  But, as the meeting progressed, I realized that it wasn't a Student Government meeting, it was the Gay Straight Alliance (GSA).  I get these acronyms confused... SGA, GSA...

I have Form Study class, and each person had a different assignment. The first part of my project was the make a paper-mache cereal-bowel, for the second part I chose to make a full-sized human sculpture, and then our teacher gave each of us an additional assignment specific to our projects. She told one person to clean up the lines in his project, and told someone else to add more to her project, and she asked me to figure out what it means to be human. That's a difficult question.

I don't know, I'm new here in Boston, and it's been confusing.

5 comments:

  1. That's so brave of you! I would have been really scared to do that. That last story is funny :)

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  2. Transitions in life are often chaotic and confusing. They are moments of fluidity, uncertainty and often the unexpected during which once familiar reference points shift or even totally disappear. But such moments can also offer special opportunities for discovering things that are new and for opening up new directions and positive change. I think that it was great for you to take a risk doing something that maybe wasn't natural or comfortable for you in order to experiment and see what might happen. Whether by nature or nurture, at least some (but not all) of your disinclination for speaking in front of a large audience doubtless comes from me. I have always been a reluctant public speaker. Speaking into a live mike without a script in front of a room full of strangers is a pretty direct way of confronting one's fear and a deeper unknown, but you did it, and there is a lesson in there somewhere. I think that you are definitely on the right track with your big life transition at MassArt. You will begin to settle in and what is right for you personally will start to become clearer and clearer.

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    1. Thank you.

      One part that I accidentally left out of this post, in my act, was saying "I have Form Study class, and each person had a different assignment. The first part of my project was the make a paper-mache cereal-bowel, for the second part I chose to make a full-sized human sculpture, and then our teacher gave each of us an additional assignment specific to our projects. She told one person to clean up the lines in his project, and told someone else to add more to her project, and she asked me to figure out what it means to be human. That's a difficult question."

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  3. You are much braver than am. I think you will do very well in Boston.

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  4. 'Fears I Fare" came to mind for me after I read this. Congratulations for taking on this challenge, giving it your best with little time to prepare,and getting the full experience, including the inner feelings that bubble up when in this type of situation. Sounds like you got some audience reaction as well, including some laughs. Your personalizing it added to the impact and people can relate to those situations and empathize with you. I really enjoyed reading this blog!

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